Valentine's Day

Haven't had the hubs here with me the last few years for Valentine's Day so it's not really a big holiday for us. Made cards for each other to exchange which I very much enjoyed and will be making a yearly tradition. We did a dinner and a movie date yesterday to avoid the crowds and saw "Valentine's Day" which was very sweet and I highly recommend. I especially enjoyed the ending =)

Today we had some very serious conversation about the roller coaster our relationship has been on lately. After some tears and uncertainty we resolved that we are both completely committed to the other and agreed to work very hard. It has been so difficult the last couple of months feeling so disconnected from each other. I get so easily frustrated when he appears so flat while I'm pouring my heart out. I forget that inside of him is a nightmare of waiting for bombs to explode or guns to be fired. He is so physically exhausted most of the time, the result of being hyper-vigilant all day and night. I crave more emotion from him. My goal is to appreciate what he can give me when he can give it and remember the rest of the time how much he cares about me and pull myself up. He promises to try and give me more communication and warmth as well from his end. Since we really stated to address the problems a couple weeks ago, a lot has been said that needed to be said. I do think we can see that light at the end of this long dark tunnel we've been lost in.